I love your honesty. I went for a job in the UK and they asked if I
had original designs in my head because I was Australian and I said
"nope". They hired me because they wrongly assumed my admission was
a sign of modestly and therefore class. I just didn't care. You
would do well with a CV like that in the UK from what I have seen.
You have holes in your knowledge. Read books, skip the parts you
know. No beginners course will help you, but enrol in something and
make contacts. You undoubtedly know more then you realise. Start
making pieces for yourself and explore your designing potential and
take on every challenge. Work on your weaknesses. Put a notice up at
a tool shop and take on work that you are not used to. Always be
Why do you doubt your ability? You can't know everything. Use what
you have and follow the directions that interest you the most. All
will come to something if you have a plan.