I completely understand, as I’ve felt the same way many times! Rio
Grande (in coordination with Craftsy) has just started offering
something I’ve been dying to have access to: high quality online
classes - I have no affiliation, I’m just really happy with the two
they’ve got so far. Goes in depth much farther than many of my
favorite books, and you get to “see” firsthand how it’s done. Plus
the instructor will answer questions you have along the way.
And there’s Ganoksin’s own BenchTube, lotsa videos that are helpful
for specific techniques and the like, along with a plethora of great
instructors out there on YouTube - mostly for specific techniques as
well as general ed.
Good luck to you, and to us all, in the quest to better our skills
and further our knowledge.