I must have been mistaken....I thought you were in New York City or
near? I thought I wanted intrinsic value too...until I got wholesale
accounts and found out. I pulled up the Manak site this morning
because another poster suggested them as a source for diamond beads.
What beautiful things! Maybe you could meander around some shows like
Crafts Park Avenue (artrider.com) to see what's out there (if you
don't do this kind of thing already)...In the Boston area at holiday
time is Crafts at the Castle (google crafts castle Boston and it
should come up). If you already have an established client base for
your work, what would hurt in putting a few (to start) experimental
pieces in the mix?
You have the frugality thing pegged. I was riding my bike with the
kids one day a couple weeks ago and passed a woman with a matching
set...turquoise slide pendant and earrings. I felt obligated to make
nice (because she lives in the neighborhood) so I said "gee, I
admired your pendant the other day, it's very pretty". She said one
word, "Target"....I wanted to go home and hide under my bed for a
little while. Frugality. Women will pay 150 dollars for jeans and buy
a 15 rhinestone necklace to go with them.
I keep thinking, if I do my best work, all the time, something will
happen. Like, Robert Redford will suddenly call me on the phone and
say "I heard about you". I let go somewhere along the way. i tried so
hard to figure what I am supposed to be. I struggled with what my
business card calls me....jewelry designer is what I settled on
despite the negative connotations. Too busy to bother so much anymore
with what people think....and now, guess what?, they are buying. I
may not be making 6 figures, but they're seeking me out. I can't
figure out what it is, so I just go with it. I don't know what I will
be doing tomorrow.
That's why I say, maybe you should meander. I really think meander
is the perfect word for what I mean. Just don't think about anything
for a while and let go. Something will pop right into your head that
didn't have room to fit before. You will get an idea...then just go
There was a documentary on Andy Warhol last night. He struggled for
years because he was a prolific illustrator for magazines and made
good money, but he wanted so desperately to be a "fine artist". On
the surface, one looks at his career and thinks "boy, he was so
successful, that would be great" and then you find out he was
tremendously unhappy. I don't know if Hanuman will let this part
thru, but.....He was living on his own in NYC, struggling with his
sexuality. his favorite thing to do was sketch nudes of young men and
try to court Truman Capote. Mom shows up one day. Her plan is to live
with him and help him find a "nice girl". Imagine his dismay.
Everyone struggles with who/what they want to be at one point or
another I guess.
Good Luck Neil, I hope I didn't ramble too much.